Don’t Turn from Summer - Chapter 87
In fact, he was not difficult to recognize. He had not changed much, he was still tall and strong, with a square and tough face. He wore a stiff black jacket seven years ago, and he still wore a black jacket. Even when walking in the crowd, there was still the calm demeanour that a mature man would have.
But there were still changes. Mu Hanxia watched him lower his head and light a cigarette, cross the street, and walk over here. Several white hairs grew on his head, and the wrinkles around his eyes were more obvious. He also walked a bit slower, his face was flat, and he seemed to have lost the feeling of high spirits in his thirties.
The two were only a few meters away.
At this moment, he took a breath of cigarettes, raised his head and his eyes passed her calmly. Suddenly, his gaze stopped and returned to her.
Across the pedestrians, she was sitting and he was standing.
Once she was a small salesperson who was forced to despair by him. He was the man who held the power and tried to cover the sky with one hand.
Mu Hanxia looked at him calmly. Meng Gang stared at her for a few seconds, suddenly pinched the smoke and threw it, then looked away, as if he hadn’t seen her and walked past her.
Mu Hanxia was slightly startled. She didn’t expect that Meng Gang would react like this when he saw her. Although the two had a grudge, Meng Gang was able to sign her resignation documents indifferently and even confronted her, sneering at her naivety. Now it seems he doesn’t want to look at her anymore?
In addition, although Leya had poor performance and closed many stores, there were still some major stores that remained strong. With Meng Gang’s contacts, it shouldn’t be difficult to work in other big stores. But now he seems to have fallen into such a supermarket. Isn’t he not doing so well?
The afternoon sun was clear, and Mu Hanxia walked slowly along the side street. Looking at the house number along the way, until she arrived in front of a small restaurant that looked a little dirty and the tables and chairs were not neat.
A woman was sitting behind a small counter, her long hair was a bit messy and a little dry, it was noon, but there was no customer in the shop. She lowered her head, swiping her phone.
Mu Hanxia whispered: “He Jing.”
He Jing paused, raised her head, and looked at her. She was startled at first, and then there was a burst of brilliance in her eyes, and she stood up: “Axia!”
Mu Hanxia put the gift she brought to her on the side chair, walked over, reached out, and hugged her. Both eyes were wet.
When the deceased returned, He Jing did not hesitate to close the store, anyway, there was no business, and took her home. He Jing’s home had not been demolished yet, and it was still in the same place. The two walked up the narrow corridor filled with small advertisements. He Jing was a little embarrassed and said: “I still live in this kind of place. Please pay attention to your feet and don’t step on dirt.” Mu Hanxia felt a little uncomfortable in her heart, smiled, and said, “What is there to be careful about, Isn’t your home similar to mine?”
He Jing laughed out of nowhere, and said, “Axia, how come your speech is still the same as before? You stayed a while back, and you haven’t become a bit mature!”
Mu Hanxia smiled without saying a word. God knows how long she has not spoken in such a carefree tone.
Mu Hanxia knew a little about He Jing’s recent situation. After two years of marriage, she had divorced. No kids. She thought that the man was not good for her, otherwise, with He Jing’s sincere and honest character, he would not easily divorce.
He Jing’s house was small and chaotic, and it seemed to be no different from what Mu Hanxia remembered. Mu Hanxia sat down on the hole in the velvet sofa, He Jing turned out a disposable cup, poured a glass of water to her, and asked, “Have you decided on where you are going to stay at night?”
Mu Hanxia glanced at her and said, ” Do you want me to make a reservation? Wouldn’t you let me sleep in the bed?”
He Jing smiled again. Mu Hanxia watched her raise her hand to straighten her hair, but there was already a very fine wrinkle around her eyes. Mu Hanxia took her hand and sat down herself.
“I’m sorry.” Mu Hanxia said softly, “I didn’t come back to accompany you when you encountered those things.”
He Jing’s eyes wet again and said, “What are you talking about, how difficult was it for you to live abroad alone, I can’t even imagine it? I just hope you will stay in US imperialism and live your life as a capitalist. I’m still ready If you save enough money, I will go to America to see you!”
Mu Hanxia put her tears down and asked with a smile, “I’m quite ambitious.”
“Of course.” He Jing said with a smile, “I am your good friend, of course, it can’t be too bad.”
The whole afternoon was spent in a glass of boiling water on a broken sofa. The two talked about each other’s thoughts and their lives during the past six years. But Mu Hanxia seldom mentioned things abroad, and more often, listened to He Jing’s experiences over the years. Slowly, the hearts of the two people also calmed down, as if they hadn’t seen each other in six years, but they still looked like little girls who were carrying goods and laughing together in the supermarket.
The dusk fell in a little bit, and the room was dark. He Jing didn’t turn on the light. She pulled out a bottle of white wine from the house and took a drink with Mu Hanxia, sipping slowly. The alcohol content was a bit high, Mu Hanxia drank slightly, He Jing closed her eyes, leaned on the sofa, smiled, and said: “Axia, do you know? I envy you very much. You are different from me. Most of us are not the same. We…most people, where are there any ideals, what are the opportunities to change life? I… lead a mediocre life. Struggling in life, getting old and busy in life, But I don’t know why I live. Now six years have passed. It’s great to see you mix so well in the United States. I’m so happy for you.” Through the plain life of an angry female idol, Mu Hanxia without speaking took another sip of wine.
He Jing smiled bitterly again: “But I sometimes think, if I, like you, worked harder and harder, would my life be different? Although I could not live as wonderfully as you, at least, I would also walk on a different road. But then I thought, different is different. I can’t do it. I can’t do as hard as you, so unwillingly. You can’t stand the mediocre life, it seems like every day… what that sentence says, you die every day and live again but I can bear it. I always say to myself, forget it, and bear it. Life is not like this, why go Suffer that, why take that risk, in case of failure? I don’t seem to have any trouble doing it like this. When I want to play, I still play. If I want to be lazy, I’ll be lazy. Thinking of this man, the conditions are okay. Appropriate, in case the conditions are worse in the future. So I want to make do for a lifetime, it’s not bad. But…” She cried: “I just don’t want to admit it, my life is a mess. Obviously, nothing is wrong. I’m the same as everyone else. I’m just not working hard enough, but I also guard myself and work hard. But whenever I ask myself, I find that I have never really had anything in the past 30 years.”
Mu Hanxia’s tears fell all of a sudden, and he hugged her and said, “What nonsense are you talking about, it’s not like this at all. Money, status, those are not the most important at all. He Jing, you are kind, honest, and sincere to others. That’s it. It is the most precious thing. You are better than many, many people, and better than many rich people I have seen in the mall. They are not as good as you, not as good! My favourite people have turned their backs on me, But you don’t. You are still my best friend.”
He Jing froze for a moment, fell silent, and sulked and said, “But I am not that kind of person anymore. I am no longer honest, kind, or sincere. I will use stinky meat in the shop and look at the guests. Eat it. If I don’t do this, I can’t even make ends meet. I see someone throwing money and things, and I hide it desperately for my own use; I see thieves and robbers, and I will only hide away, and then I can’t speak either. I see those rich people and look at those good cars. I curse in my heart that they don’t do well. Axia, you see, I have become like this.”
Mu Hanxia drank the wine in the cup in one gulp, and she suddenly felt particularly uncomfortable. She thought that this was the true face of the years.
This was what had been raging through the years, and we were born into ordinary tiny lives. Some people stay where they are, and some have wandered far away. Some people live their lives desperately, while others live mediocrely. But in the end, we are all losing. Move forward in the loss.